The Cursed

A long day

2009-07-29T16:36:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a long day.. know why? i slept from 3 pm until 6 am this morning.. amazing?
yesterday has been a very tiring day coz shit happened when my bike tire blew. I pushed it from my faculty to home which about 4km.. man I'm really exhausted after that.. all i wished was a very long sleep and its has been granted.. and I was regret for that wish.. because of that wish.. i was not able to spend time with my bii who have been waiting for me.. I'm so sorry darling.. but i really tired.. sry im so weak.. i love u sayang.. hope u read this

Muscle pain

2009-07-28T16:09:00.000-07:00

Hola amigo

Was quite tired yesterday, carried bags weighing 25kg from the faculty store to the polymer lab which around 40 meters distance and was carried it alone.. man after came back home, i straightly get some water to drink and i cant even hold the glasses well, my hand kinda shaky, prolly i didn't do much of works these days and all the muscles was in the rest pose all this long, and carried heavy things so sudden make it jam or cramp.. aww after eating my lunch, i straight away go to sleep for 4 hours @_@ haha.

I couldn't sleep well again last night.. hmm kept dreaming my bii (lol that's the result of not having my 'happy time' for so long).. but not just that.. i kept remember things in the past and realized how fast the time gone and how short this life is. Nah maybe i slept too long in the evening as a result i couldn't sleep well haha.. uh and still having a muscles pain thou during the night and having a light stomachache too, oh man i hate my body ><
owh i think i reduce in weight a lil bit haha, i must start working out !! woohooo man i really dream to have 6 packs lol.

oh well nth much for yesterday haha, and today's journey.. i can't wait for it.
Looking forward guys.. smell ya

P/S : good luck baybee bii for your UMAT exam, all the best yer sayang ^-^ mwahhx i love so much

I ain't dead yet

2009-07-27T15:47:00.000-07:00

Well drop by here like drop into a garden which has been turned up into a bush, haha who cares just put a lil effort and i bet i can get the thing works.

Aite, where shall i start?

let's make today as the starting point

I couldn't sleep well last night, so many things bothering me, from my studies, family and relationships thingy.. prolly i look so carefree aye, well im human too, can't escape from this matter.
It's actually something biggie thou, but i always take it lightly.. I'm the type who don't like to stress myself, i always take things easy, but i know in the end, it'll be burdens that may kill me.

nah what the heck, advertising own problems here I felt like a handicap (although i did it in the past).

Hmm, how about give a lil kick on what's I've thru for my new sem? well its a 4th week already, and for us the 4th year students who just finished with our industrial training, this is our 3rd week, lag 1 week behind thou, but its ok since all the students for 4th having the same shcedule when we came back to uni, its not a biggie.

well, in total, this sem i took 7 subjects consists of 2 labs, 1 project and 4 lectures.
this sem subjects are quite tough especially my final year under-graduate project where the materials i have ordered have not yet reached and the lecturer who in charge to supervise me gone missing. Its 4th week already and i should have my things ready and my lecturer gone missing pulak. oh well, i'll check with the store again today since yesterday the store seems to be closed. arghh hopefully i got the shit ready by this week, i don't want to be lag behind. blah its almost 7.15 am, i gtg the prepare stuffs for uni, got lab at 8.

smell ya everybody (although i bet there is no reader already =X)

Fuck Youtube for suspending rgregorius account

2009-07-24T15:01:00.000-07:00

Dammn, kamen rider no1 fans rgregorius who always upload stuff related to kamen rider in youtube has been suspended, shit youtube arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Tagged by MAO >w<

2009-06-24T07:47:00.000-07:00

1. Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?

Forehead xD

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?

Lazy.. to go to work lol

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?

my trainee's frens

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?

hmm don't think so =X

5.Will you ever donate blood?

no.. i dun have enuff blood for myself.. and i am a haemophobic =P

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

Yup

7.Do you want someone to be dead?

I wish Bush to be dead now

8.What does your last text message say?

Dah sampai? -from my Mom

9.What are you thinking right now?

My project ><

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?

of course.. wish she cud be here, my biibiii =3

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?

1 am +

12.Where did you buy the cloth you are wearing now?

Nike shop

13.Is someone on your mind right now?

Yup Yup it's her =3

14.Who was the last person who text you?

my Mom, lol similar question

FIVE Lucky Person to do this quiz:

1. Jolene 2. Beatrice 3. Skye 4.Myst 5. Ellop

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship with?

no idea

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

Female

17. If no.5 and no.1 get together, would it be a good?
The person who tagged me will be very mad lol

18. What is no.4 studying about?

Ntah lah, Account maybe

19. when was the last time you chatted with them?

no. 2 and 3 yesterday, no 1, 4 and 5 couldn't remember

20. Is no. 4 single?

Don't think so, she so choosy, no1 dare to approach wakakka

21. Say something about no.2.

She is my best-est fren, lovely and understanding =3

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 3 being together?

They ain't lesbo

23. Describe no.1.

My cute lil fren, about to sit for STPM (issit?)

24. What will you do if no.3 and no.5 fight?

I'll call Mao to settle the thing =X

25. Do you like no.4?

yeap, as a fren of course xD

2009-02-27T22:14:00.000-08:00

The heart says

A rhyme without a melody, a melody without a rhyme
Line after line and time after time
Keep on approaching, keep on getting closer
But why the fact still hidden? It wont lead to any better
I'm using a cliche, but I'm not a cliche user
It can't speak, but this is the what the heart says
After been so long, day after day
Why it so doubtful, why it's in disguise
Why it must wait? why it must be a surprise?
I always wanted you to say the words that you'd always whisper
I really wish u could proudly say it in front of your sister
Although I guess it just gonna be a disaster
Because I know, I'm not as perfect as her-future
I just want to be me, I'm not a wannabe
I'm not a somebody, but you're somebody to me
Been wondering, how long it's gonna be
For you to highlight our relation for clarity
Maybe it will stay forever like this, or maybe its just a sweet dream
Maybe someday I'll wake up and realize, it was an imaginary thing

My Green Valentine

2009-02-05T10:16:00.000-08:00

For My CottonCandy

I don’t know where to start, when it comes to this writing art
But I guess I just let it out, all these feelings in my heart
For the one that I care, for the one that I really love
For the one that I miss, for the one I always think of
To show to you that I’m in love with you darling, seriously
And I wrote this just for you, I’m not writing this randomly
I’m sorry if I cast you with a lot of worries
I just wanted to share and I hope u notice
And you better know this, that I love you more than you can tell
Like a great Shaman’s Mantra, no one could ever dispell
Ever give a fuck to the Angel no more, because I hate that bitch
I refuse to fly with a despo, Vergo never fuck with The Witch
Let’s switch and move on, let the past lose the race
I’m happy in your hands, with the smiles on my face
Baby you’re full of grace, your cares gave the sweetest taste
You’re like the cuddly teddy bear, I can’t refuse to embrace
I’m not but a fallen soldier, love turns me to inferior
I thought my life was over, but u came as a savior
You gave me your heart in order to see me breathing
You gave me your hands, so I can see the sun again
You are the source of lights, who makes my life brighter
Drives my life meaningful with Neon emission colors
The best thing was when I found u, I’m so glad
I promise, I will always be with u, u’re my fate
I still remember the day when we both shed the same cries
Over a shit from the fella we knew, a beautiful liar
I insist to be cold, that I won’t melt with a cute lil figure
I don’t need fans or haters I just give my middle finger
You are my trampoline bounce me up when I’m down
Always here by my side, cheer me up when I frown
You are my goddess, the great seventh heaven servant
Perfection approaches, you are the most beautiful maiden
I can’t relate you with nature, or any other metaphors
Coz nothing can be compare to you, you’re the best of all
I ain’t Shakespeare, to write something like Sonnet 18
But hoping this rhyme tells ya, I love u more than u love green
I don’t have much time I’m sorry if the rhyme less fine
As I am dying, trying to make this gift of Valentine
For my darling, I love her through out my endeavors
So no more worries bayBee, this Honey is yours

Exams

2008-11-10T04:36:00.000-08:00

3 days of misery
4 papers of mystery
A fucking upcoming results for guarantee

=P

well, being slacking, oh gawd, hope u hear this !!
pls help me T^T

Happy Burfday Beatrice Darling !! ^w^

2008-11-09T05:21:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday to u~
Happy Birthday to u~
Happy Birthday to Beatrice~
Happy Birthday to u~

hehe, i'll sing for real later, i dun have much time online here
hopefully u will love my present, just make sure u at home by tomorrow
or tuesday

happy always darling, miss ya so much =3

FRIENDSHIP

2008-11-09T05:18:00.000-08:00

FRIENDSHIP..
Ever wondered what is the real essence of the saying "A Friend in Need is a Friend Indeed"?
People talk about the true value of friendship without knowing what it stands for.

True friendship is::
when there are no formalities;
when the person you are talking about is counted as family;
when the relation you share reaches a stage that
even if you don't correspond for sometime,
your relationship remains intact.
Best friends need not meet up often
to make sure that the friendship remains constant.
The trust between best friends is such that
if one friend falls in trouble,
the other will not think twice to help.
If the bond between two friends is strong,
true friends can endure even long distances.
They find a way of being in touch despite busy schedules.
True friendship never fades away;
in fact it grows better with time.
True friends don't need a posh place to hang out.
Their most precious hideout is each others' rooms!
True friendship thrives on trust,
inspiration and comfort.
Best friends come to know when
the other person is in trouble,
merely by listening to their "Hello" over the phone.
True friends don't desert each other when there is trouble.
They face it together and support each other
even if it hurts the other individual's interest.
Best friends don't analyze each other; they don't have to.
They accept each other
with their positive and negative qualities.
Nothing is hidden between true friends;
they know each other's strengths and weaknesses.
Best friends don't stand any outsider
commenting or criticizing their friendship
and they can put up a very firm resistance if anyone does so.
True friends are not opportunists.
They don't help because they have something to gain out of it.
True friendship is selfless.
Best friends support even when
the whole world opposes you.
It is not easy getting true friends and
if you have even one true friend,
consider yourself blessed.
In this world full of cynics and back stabbers,
there are still some people
who are worth being friends with.

p/s : curi dari jolene wakakaka

Jojo's tag ^w^

2008-11-08T01:56:00.000-08:00

::instructions::Never see the questions before you arrange the names
- all mentioned below are (not on purpose)

all the names below r my frens in RO and have blog @_@
1. Beatrice
2. Nana
3. Jolene
4. Skye
5. myst

1.How did you meet 1?
Meet in RO, wat a coincidence, i luan2 ask her phone number, she gave jor, and look at we now, best fren ^^

2. On a scale of 1 - 10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?
10

3. How long have you known 4?
erm.. 10 months or more? din remember xD

4.How do you know 3?
Ragnarok Online xD

5.Where's 5?
near my place at JB also, but she resist to meet me, wahahaha

6.A fact about number 1?
lovely, sweet and caring, love u beatrice =3

7. Who's 4 going out with?
dunno leh, her classmate lor, or the person i know in RO, Zhi Yuen @_@

8.What does 1 do for a living?
Studying and she gonna be 1 of the finest musician ^^

9.Would you live with no.3?
If my gurl and herself dun mind, i sapu jer xD

10.What do you like about no.2?
smart, caring, very sweet, appreciative, nice and cute ^w^

11.Do you miss no.5?
no lar, she only always miss me, wakakaka

12.Would you make out with no.4?
can also, but now i got my darling edi ler, cant flirt hehee

13.What's your opinion on number 2?
she so sweet and caring, smart and lovely ( i think i mentioned above ler)

14.What's your favourite memory with number 5?
hahaha, torture her to meet me wakakaka

15. What will you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
erm, happy lor, wat else i can say =3

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
not really, myst quite sombong with me 1 =P

17.Have you ever slept at 2's house?
i'd love to, but havent YET =D

18.Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
with honey ar< at RO lor <3

19.Who have you known the longest?
1 of course, love u beatrice ^^ thx for ur number dat day xD

20.What will happen if number 1 and 5 have a relationship?
cool !

21.How often do you talk to 1?
often, i think i just called her 2 days ago @_@

22.What about 2?
chat in RO and msn, often nia, my darling ma

23.Have you ever thought 3 more than a friend?
of course, she is my honey /gg

24.Would you go on a date with number 5?
Of course, but she tak nak 1, hahahaha

25. Do you dream about number 2?
twice =3

26.What did no.4 did to you that you can never forget?
ermm.. dunno.. i forgot all nia

27.What have you done for/to 1 that the person never forgets?
dunno leh, must ask beatrice lolx

28. What's 3's hobby?
err.. jojo help me, i dunno ur hobby !! xD

Forbidden love

2008-11-06T03:40:00.001-08:00

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Music Codes

All about me

2008-11-05T11:21:00.000-08:00

Well, u guys prolly know the different version of Shaman in game
so imma tell y'all about my true self in real life

well, i am turning 21 next month, but i am physically and mentally like a 16 years old boy

I was born in dec 23rd 1987 in JB and i never 'go out' from Johore yet, my life aint dat wide, and my social lvl are damn low, since i was a kid, my mom din let me play at the playground after i've been beaten by someone who 7 years older than me, im the most stubborn child in family. If anything happened, i will be the no 1 scapegoat to be scold and its still happen to me at this kinda age

since day 1, my relation with siblings aint tight, prolly aint tight as ur's who reading this, but we still care bout each other.

i was raise in a place full with Chinese, both of my neighbors are Chinese. I used to play and mixed with chinese frens esp my neighbors who gave me a chinese nickname = Ah Yen, and since dat day, my fam call me dat nick, but really i dun prefer ppl call me dat name besides my fam

If i want to compare myself with my siblings, i guest im the worse, the only thang i can be proud is, prolly im brighter. My mom really neat on education, and since im the brighter among my siblings, i was force to study hard, but still i nvr make'em proud of me yet, i neva be the best.

i was taught to be an average and simple person,never waste money on something dat i dun need and live in luxury. My parents r good at savings, and im suppose to study oversea in pharmacy course.. but things aint always as wat we planned to be, the money my parents saved for me was used to help my bro, so.. no biggie, study in MY also aint bad, but honestly im drowning with this course..

i dunno wat else i shud write, i guess its clear man, im not good looking plus lack of height. but well, its aint something to regret or watever, im happy with my life and myself, and im happier than ever now.. coz there is some1 who will accept me not by looking at my physical, and im very touched, i love u darling.. love u lots, lot than the sands at the shore
thx for appreciate me this much

Today is mom's birthday !! xD

2008-11-05T05:45:00.000-08:00

hmm im quite bz atm, i'll edit this post later, just took some pics, sso here u go

Da cake, small 1 lar, no1 eat also =P

Chocolate for mom !! she loved it xD

aite dats mom and dad, arent they sweet couple? <3

me and mom, dat took quite blur ler

Mama xD

mom and dad

Bonzainess

2008-11-04T11:42:00.000-08:00

I'll edit this later, but if u guys really wanna see how tall i am, u can make comparison about my height and my fren, he's 178cm

aite, i got a music vid to share from eminem "When I'm Gone"
really touchy man, if u guys can feel it

Yeah...
It's my life...
My own words I guess...

[Verse 1]
Have you ever loved someone so much, you'd give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?
When they know they're your heart
And you know you were their armour
And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her
But what happens when karma, turns right around and bites you?
And everything you stand for, turns on you to spite you?
What happens when you become the main source of her pain?
"Daddy look what I made", Dad's gotta go catch a plane
"Daddy where's Mommy? I can't find Mommy where is she?"
I don't know go play Hailie, baby, your Daddy's busy
Daddy's writing a song, this song ain't gonna write itself
I'll give you one underdog then you gotta swing by yourself
Then turn right around on that song and tell her you love her
And put hands on her mother, who's a spitting image of her
That's Slim Shady, yeah baby, Slim Shady's crazy
Shady made me, but tonight Shady's rocka-by-baby...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 2]
I keep having this dream, I'm pushin' Hailie on the swing
She keeps screaming, she don't want me to sing
"You're making Mommy cry, why? Why is Mommy crying?"
Baby, Daddy ain't leaving no more, "Daddy you're lying
"You always say that, you always say this is the last time
"But you ain't leaving no more, Daddy you're mine"
She's piling boxes in front of the door trying to block it
"Daddy please, Daddy don't leave, Daddy - no stop it!"
Goes in her pocket, pulls out a tiny necklace locket
It's got a picture, "this'll keep you safe Daddy, take it withcha'"
I look up, it's just me standing in the mirror
These fuckin' walls must be talking, cuz man I can hear 'em
They're saying "You've got one more chance to do right" - and it's tonight
Now go out there and show that you love 'em before it's too late
And just as I go to walk out of my bedroom door
It's turns to a stage, they're gone, and this spotlight is on
And I'm singing...

[Chorus]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

[Verse 3]
Sixty thousand people, all jumping out their seat
The curtain closes, they're throwing roses at my feet
I take a bow and thank you all for coming out
They're screaming so loud, I take one last look at the crowd
I glance down, I don't believe what I'm seeing
"Daddy it's me, help Mommy, her wrists are bleeding,"
But baby we're in Sweden, how did you get to Sweden?
"I followed you Daddy, you told me that you weren't leavin'
"You lied to me Dad, and now you make Mommy sad
"And I bought you this coin, it says 'Number One Dad'
"That's all I wanted, I just want to give you this coin
"I get the point - fine, me and Mommy are going"
But baby wait, "it's too late Dad, you made the choice
"Now go out there and show 'em that you love 'em more than us"
That's what they want, they want you Marshall, they keep.. screamin' your name
It's no wonder you can't go to sleep, just take another pill
Yeah, I bet you you will. You rap about it, yeah, word, k-keep it real
I hear applause, all this time I couldn't see
How could it be, that the curtain is closing on me
I turn around, find a gun on the ground, cock it
Put it to my brain and scream "die Shady" and pop it
The sky darkens, my life flashes, the plane that I was supposed to be on crashes and burns to ashes
That's when I wake up, alarm clock's ringin', there's birds singin'
It's Spring and Hailie's outside swinging, I walk right up to Kim and kiss her
Tell her I miss her, Hailie just smiles and winks at her little sister
Almost as if to say..

[Chorus/Outro]
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel my pain
Just smile back...

Beatrice dear tagged me wor ^w^

2008-11-04T04:41:00.000-08:00

[01] Real name: Fazril Shazriq Mahmud
[02] Nickname:Rael Shaman Asakura Vergo Ayen =D
[03] Married: solo
[04] Zodiac Sign: capricon
[05] Gender: Male
[06] Age: 20 (coming 21)
[07] High school: SMK Taman Johor Jaya 2
[08] College: UTM
[09] Height: 165cm (guess so.. nvr measure coz i am bonzai xD)
[10] Weight: err around 60kg? nvr measure also, but im not skinny neither fat xD
[11] Do you like yourself: not really =D
[12] Piercings: no
[13] Right or left: none
[14] Are you a freak: kinda
[15] Hair: short
[16] Skin: fair
[17] Allergic: Dust
[18] What are you doing now: this tag
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: go hostel
[20] What will you do 10 years later: study and gaming like a lifeless freak

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with : Parents
[22] Siblings(included you): 3
[23] Eldest: my brother
[24] Youngest: my sister
[25] Love/hate your family: Love of course

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: fortunately yes
[27] If yes, who is he/she: too sensitive, but u guys know right? xD
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be:
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 5
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): infinity
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-10000): many times also xD
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: no way, we care bout each other
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: nothing
[34] Ever argue with your other half: not really =3, she so sweet
[35] You with your other half since: havent meet yet lolx
[36] Reasons you love your other half: she sweet and caring, appreciative
[38] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: me lor, gentlemen ma
[39] Ever think of marry he/she: yes

THE FRIENDS
[40] Your first best friend: Anor, Pradeep chand, and Beatrice dear <3 love u guys
[41] Your first enemy: dunno, i dun have enemy haha, being nice with every1 =3
[42] The friend you love the most(1 only): Betarice dear =3
[43] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): none
[44] Your most beautiful girl friend: Ermy natasya, joanne, ana, mao, nana skye, beatrice .. many lar, not enuff space
[45] Your most handsome boy friend: all handsome
[46] The kind of girl you hate the most: Bitchy
[47] The kind of boy you hate the most: yang jiwang dan perasan lebih lolx
[48] You fall in love with your close friend before: yes.. haha of course u beatrice !!
[49] Your best friend is your ex-lover: no xD
[50] If your friend backstabbing you: erm.. dunno.. im not an avenger
[51] If your friend betray you: cry lor xD
[52] If your friend woo your lover: i woo his lover back +_+
[53] If your friend fall in love with you: erm.. dunno leh, im taken xD
[54] If you fall in love with your best friend: hmm, if best fren.. better be fren lar, i fall in love with my close fren also, then broke up.. i guess i rather have her now as a fren =3

THE STUDIES
[55] Are you a good student: lol, not really xD, i kuat ponteng +_+
[56] You always done your homeworks/assignments: always !! copy fren 1 wakakaka
[57] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Dr Aznizam. My chem lecture in matrix (forgot name sia =.=)
[58] Always late to school/college: unfortunately yes
[59] You love your seniors : none of them wakakaka
[60] Seniors who you love the most: no
[61] Your classmates good/bad: Good
[62] Excellent result classmate: Wong Tuck Wai, Radhi, Ridhuan
[63] Laziest classmate: Me
[64] Smart people: Pian, Azlan, Besar
[65] Stupid people: me lol
[66] Good looking people: let see.. Azwan kot
[67] Ugly people: all good looking +_+
[68] Funny people: all funny, but im not funniest wakaka
[69] Cute people: Ridhuan !!! montel =3
[70] Bad people: none
[71] Honest people: Azwan
[72] Acting people: Azlan
[73] You are what kind of people: average Joe xD

THE PREFER
[74] Lip or eyes: lips
[75] Hugs or kisses: Both
[76] Shorter or taller: shorter
[77] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous
[78] Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms
[79] Listener or Talker: Listener
[80] Romantic or rich: Romantic
[81] Good husband or good father: Both

THE FUTURE
[82] Age to get marry: 25?
[83] Numbers of kid(s): 2-3
[84] Career: erm, anything lar xD
[85] Salary: not important
[86] Retirement age: 56
[87] Properties value: Infinity (copy wen +_+)
[88] Wishes: i want a happy life and normal

Jojo honey tagged me wo ^w^

2008-11-03T22:16:00.000-08:00

1)What was your dream when you were a small kid?
Wanna be a hero !! Save the world << influenced by power ranger =P

2)What was the happiest thing in your whole life?
It happened on 3rd September 2008, but well.. not anymore =P
but forget it, im happy to have all my frens who support me and u darling ^w^

3)What do you wish to have right now?
A better life =P

4)When was the last time you Horse Laugh??
erm, when i was with my best fren Pradeep Chand, damn we laugh everyday in class, kacau ppl and etc, damn really miss u dude !

5)What do you realize recently?
I realize that.. dun ever seize anything which don't fit ur size

6)Which bad habit of you thats is most unacceptable?
erm.. I'm so direct maybe? and like to tell ppl if i wanna go pangsai =D

7)When you're unhappy what will you do?
laugh lor, make fake laugh, sure can happy, wahahaha, or i just sleep

8)What are you afraid of losing?
All my frens and family, my properties !! xD eh of course this internet line lol

9)Within 5 years,which target is the most realistic one?
ermm.. to be in Uni? but uni life sux =D

10)When you met someone you like,will you confess or hide your feelings?
I'm kinda direct, but i wont confess aimlessly lar.. need to know her better 1st, get close then only confess.. if she reject, nvm.. still can be fren xD

11)List out 3 kind of person you hate the most.
Racist, faker and b1tch

12)Define loneliness.
when u r alone w/o internet and phone =P

13)Are you satisfied with your life now?
Enuff will never satisfy, but i am enjoy my life

14)When is the most recent time you felt touched?
when she said, she sayang me ^w^

15)Where is the most beautiful place that you have visited?
My toilet !!

16)A song that is playing in your mind recently?
Too Phat - A Million Mile

17)If you have a wish come true,what is it?
I want to be the most handsome man in the world !! wakakaka, no lar, i wish to have a happy life

18)Do you have anything to worried or scared recently?
exams of course !!

19)If the world is going to end,what will you do?
Fly to NZ, tell her dat i love her, hug her tightly !! then pray xD

20)Who are you thinking of right now?
MY darling lor <3

21) Tagging...
hmm, tag my darling beatrice !!
and NaNa =3

31/10

2008-11-03T03:30:00.000-08:00

well, woke up ealy again =)

willing to go home early.. but my wallet.. at fren room @_@, dun want kacau him sleep
haiz i always like this, letak barang sepah-sepah

but nvm lar.. i sms Herman, donate items +_+ coz i got so many order from frens in trinity.. for Gloom card.. they dun believe leh i buy rm10 with GM @_@

so i help them lar, after Friday prayer, i go to bank.. banked in rm200, hehe
then hujan.. kena hujan.. haiz..

then like 3 pm, GM online, gimme 1 sinx card 4 gloom 1 tanee and 3k berry+ 400m +_+
untung leh donate rather then buy in zeny or with ppl, haha, GM know me lar, dats why

so i give nixz his gloom and tanee, he top up me rm20, then play with sinx card, kacau ppl use my creator, wakakaka
all so jealous i got ugly homun leh, so kacau them !!

well, at night, my parents came back from KL !! with my niece !! haha she missed me so much, keep hugging me, and my dad bought her Barbie !! haha, but actually my niece dun really like play dolls, she rather play tembak-temabk liao, wahahahah

i got some of her pics

haha, she really know hot to pose xD

cheers =)

30/10

2008-11-03T01:54:00.000-08:00

woke up at 6am, shower, breakfast

7 am, kena halau xD

go back uni.. all ppl asleep.. so i cont sleep also

then, 11.30 am.. go lunch

eat simple food only, then go my room, lepak2, performed Zohor prayer
then sleep !! haha

and.. i have this weird dream..

well.. i wrote it in the form of rhymes

The song of the birds breaking through the ambiance snores
The sun keeps on shining the sand,
The waves keep beating the shore
Trees are waving as the breeze passed
The weather in bliss, I'm having a good rest
With the two sisters that i never met
and I'm one of the man that one of them had
In a hut, we were playing a game
The sisters had to run and i gotta chase them
Hold them hands, they started count to three
My girl resist to run, but the sister was free
From my hand, she running heading to the sea
I'm reluctant to chase her, but my girl insist me
So I put my shoes on and run to where she been
The sky turned gloomy, the wave gone crazy
I found her, but she refuse to follow
And she move her feet to deep from shallow
She said, she's waiting for someone
that she'd loved from day-one
But the game was a cursed
The sea, she's in thirst
Out of my sight, she disappeared
"She has been swallowed by the sea"
From the voice that i heard
Aimlessly i ran into the hut
To find my girl, and brought her to the spot
She was crying hard
I hold my girl tight
I hold her tight.. I hold her real tight
Wishing on a star through the night
Hoping that everything gonna be alright
I ignite prayers like the beacon
As a beckon for her to return
But I don't believe in Neptune
But He's like hearing it from the deep
And I found the sister lying on the beach
She still manage to breathe but she asleep
I hold her and carry her at my chest
I heard a voice told me that her memories was erased
My girl drop her tears as I placed her sis in the hut
Suddenly a crystal ball came out
Like it was the memories of her
The crystal ball shattered
I heard a voice again telling me the potion
of curing her by finding her beloved one through the ocean
But I can't proceed to the journey because I'm stuck at this mile
My phone's alarm wakes me up, it was a dream so I just smile

haha, well just a dream.. but its kinda weird for me.. like its try to deliver s message to me.. but i still can't figure it out.. maybe someday I will

argh.. plain life.. lolx

study.. dengar music, chilling with frens.. dats all

haha but during the night, we go out again, dinner !!

go to another restaurant, and its worse !!
i order other food, they send different 1 !!
so i just cancel, wait like damn long.. not me only..
my fren also got different meal !!
stupid tul
after the rest eat, the we went to jusco.. expensive lar jusco, i suggest go to Giant, just 300m far only.. but we riding bikes wat, not so much different, but my fren said "ah nth at Giant", damn lar, he actually got something to buy for his GF, coz he already survet dat thing at jusco.. and give us such reason.. haiz, nvm lar

At giant, i buy biscuit and milo, haha, the rest dunno buy wat lar..
then hungry.. i go buy KFC, tapau
wait 20 mins sia.. they said, the chicken still in the frying process, shit lar..
then another stupid thing happened.. got wrong order lagi =.=
from KFC lolx, suddenly, after go back to hostel.. they give me KFC chicken rice.. i order dinner plate nia.. but actually.. got dinner plate also.. but they give another 2 extra chickens and rice + soup.. hmm? maybe we wait too long, they give extra.. but fark lar, i eat dinner plate also like struggling.. tak habes T__T.. so i give the rice to my fren, and some chickens also.. haha.. then sleep lor !! oh i call my mom and my niece !! both at KL already hahaha

cheers =)

29/10

2008-11-03T01:50:00.001-08:00

Hell yeah, woke up at 4 am, after dinner, gone back to uni.. then sleep jor.. quite tired

then i study a bit lar.. until so sienz, then im so so hungry.. all my frens steel asleep at 9 am... haiz.. so i call my parents, coz they suppose to go to Shah Alam by today, but then my mom said, my dad gotmeeting.. so they delay it to tmr..

so apa lagi, i ask my mom fry me some burgers.. then i go home lor, haha

so.. balik rumah, eat.. then as usual.. play RO xD, but i gone to sleep on evening.. leepy.. woke up at 8 pm i think.. then play summon @_@.. haha !! i kill doppel de got card !! so lucky.. Jeff jealous hahaha

then.. 12 am i gone to bed.. coz tmrm need wake up early.. my mom will go to Shah Alam early in the morning.

28/10

2008-11-03T01:43:00.000-08:00

hmm lets get back to the event dati missed

well today, i gone back to my uni, study a bit
chill with frens, and during the night, me and my frens were going out
shit, dunno wat makes them drop at not popular restaurant @_@
so.. as usual, i order my fav food, chicken rice =D, but they said.. only have 'Nasi Ayam Penyet", well, i eat dat Ayam Penyet before, well its some kind of Indo food, where they mash the chicken with some ingredients, the taste quite ok..
but this restaurant.. so lame lar.. give me a tasteless chicken, they just mashed it without put any 'rempah', and.. the ufcking sauce they provides is.. sambal belacan =(
shit i dun, never was and never will eat dat belacan thingy lar.. so i just eat the rice and chicken only.. waste my rm4.50 T_T

but ok lar, kenyang also lolx.. but me and my frens will never go to dat restaurant ANYMORE !!!

Weekend

2008-10-27T05:35:00.000-07:00

Well, weekend, nothing much to talk about

well, as usual, a plain and bored weekend plus tiring

my bro came to my crib again, haha quite happy coz my lil niece now can turn her body =D and tend to laugh, hehe.. dammit i plan to take my nieces photos, but on sunday, my house being rushed by 3 families which r our relatives, so.. i dun really have a chance to do the thing.. and i was so tired and exhausted and i broke a record, din sleep for 24 hours without any drugs assist, lol

well, today, my fren gimme a phone call.. and i am force to go back to my uni @_@ haha, got assignment dammit

well gtg.. c ya guys soon.. real soon =P

cheers : Asakura shaman, Vergo The Cursed

hmm..

2008-10-23T21:07:00.000-07:00

well, on the other day.. i fall asleep at 8 pm then sleep till 3 am! OMG, haha, i got a test this morning, so i woke up by 3 then go shower, pray and study

well.. nothing much to cover <<<(coz actually wanna slack)
so just memorize some formulas and study the question pattern
then suddenly rain oh.. so cold.. i nonstop shivering
plus, no sweater, i have to cover my body with my blanket

shivering this time, but still carve my lame smile lol

look at my hair, haha, i like this hairstyle, but seldom get it lolx,

Look at my hair !! i said look at my hair !!

haha, well, after my head saturated, i do some exercise, since so cold, i do some warm up.. lame hahaha

haha, sajer jer action lolx

hmm, all tests is out and had finished, so now.. waiting for final exams
quite scared lolx, hope i dun have to repeat any paper T_T
today test quite ok, but just out abit when i cudnt remember the formula, arghh.. but nvm lar, just a small portion, but still.. gonna make me lose marks =(

Plagiarism Plague

2008-10-22T14:19:00.000-07:00

A million miles

Chorus( Siti Nurhaliza )

How love can ever be
Right before my eyes
Still a million miles away from me

Verse 1 ( Malique )

They say love is blind, I say it blinds you
Tempts you off your sanity, abide by mind rules
The truth behind the myth it lies in our reality
Love is just a four letter word thatâ€™s sung in melody
To complete formality, you hear it when the ballads breathe
Every couple wants to be the next Cleo and Anthony
Or Clyde and Bonnie, or Frank butler and Annie
Mumtaz and Shah, Gina Montana and Manny
But this ainâ€™t no love epic, Iâ€™m just a hopeful skeptic
Mischievous thoughts made poetic now spit it on record
Iâ€™m not in love with cha, Iâ€™m just in love at cha
Distant admiration, link and spoil the whole picture
I betcha a mil, you dancinâ€™ in a million minds
A million times you handshakinâ€™ from a million miles
And put a million smiles, a million different stories
And how we diff a million miles is self explanatory

Chorus

Verse 2 ( Joe Flizzow )

I sing this lullaby, forbidden love sitting before my eyes
My heart is screaming although nobody can hear my cries
Wishing on a star as I look into the night
Say a little prayer only God can understand my plight
Glimpses of her sight, flashing in my mind
Although she near the distance seems like a million miles
Somebody told me once that patience is a virtue
And true love is worth waiting for although it might just hurt you
And if it comes right back, that means itâ€™s truly destined
I promise to hold back the tears, never say never
And I know you thinking of me all through out your endeavours
And if its part of His plans, one day weâ€™ll be together
A few things last forever, so I write this poem
A lot of times, you wonâ€™t miss it right until itâ€™s gone
And though I soldier on, these feelings in my heart
Will never change â€˜cos I loved you from the start

Chorus

Verse 3 ( Malique )

We seen a lot of come
We seen a lot of go
But we ainâ€™t seen a lot of stars who got a lot of soul
And keep their feet to the ground
Despite a lot soul truly unforgettable like old Nat Cole
It ainâ€™t even about your look your style is debonair
The voice that stuns the nation when it comes on air
Expectations of intimacy was never there
But it would be nice to swap a couple hellos with the funny stares
But you just smile dumbfound when you come around
But little hushes now silence is the perfect sound,
Or whether this is fun or play ya
Just holler at your boy a million miles away

Chorus

" i used to say "i don't believe in love". but then i grew up and said, "hey, maybe love does exist, and it does make people happy". yea. happy. all i can say is, maybe love can make you happy. but it doesn't always seem to last. my happiness cuz of love didn't even last me a year. gave me more misery instead. just when i thought that someone else's love towards me could help heal the wound my first love gave me, it stabbed me on the back telling me to get real. maybe i'm too sensitive. maybe i'm too emotional. well, i may be interpreting too many things wrongly, cuz i am just plain confused right now about everything. but lemme juz tell y'all this. being loved by lotsa people gives a good feeling, but don't play each and every one of them. you'll end up hurting yourself much more. if you were to tell a person you love them, say it directly. don't be too flowery. we ain't living in the Shakespeare ages anymore, so most people won't understand. if you don't love them, tell them directly as well. better to hurt them now then make them figure out for themselves that you don't love them after all. if people say they wanna remain friends, be grateful. It's better to stay as friends then to lose a friend cuz you're always asking for more. if you only wanna remain friends, tell them so that they won't keep false hopes on you. you'll just disappoint them, and that makes you a big jerk. if you love someone else instead of the one you're simply stuck with, juz let them go. don't make them suffer any longer. i learnt alot about love this year. being far from your hometown does teach you alot about things you thought that you knew. love DOES hurt. wondering why i'm blabbering about all this love stuffs? well, i'm not telling. let me just keep it to myself. =) just treat this post as one of my rare emo moments. perhaps i need to go watch some happy movie now. this post has no target, so don't feel targetted. it's just what i feel. no offense. all i can say is, i learnt my lesson. all of us has been jerk before, including me."

"Reality is wrong, Dreams are for real"

New Day Will Come

2008-10-22T12:47:00.000-07:00

They said, good people die young

hahaha, well, its not gonna happen to me !!

coz I'm bad to the bone !!

Shit, daydreams of ya dream days is over
New beginning create creams, keep ya head sober
server rollover, just delete the bugs
A new start, let the pain gone stark
Being stuck in dilemma, but that's for awhile
Break it and escape, be free to carve a smile
Don't be a ass-up but lift ya ass up and stand
Plan ya step, don't waste what u gonna spend
Believe in yaself, be ready to walk wat u gonna say
The journey still a long way, wake up its a new day

haha, yo I've been searching thru all friends friedster's, search for my uni pic, haha i found 2 lol

oh shoot, ufcking small lolx

Great day

2008-10-22T12:09:00.000-07:00

haha i guess, today was a great day, after took a long sabbatical, I'm back fresh with fresh news to hear

1. my fren Pian got gurlfren already !! wootz, haha dat lucky gurl is my classmate too !! haha funny woo~ including him, there r 3 of them now, 3 couples in the same class, wakakak cam takder orang lain jer, neways, hope u guys happy always ^.^

so.. yang still single.. prolly just me,besar and wan xD, takper waktu kita akan sampai +_+ we keep on the wiser thought wakakaka

Masked Rider !!

small gym

2. Hmm. got test today lol, ufcking retarded questions lol, suddenly ask for application.. really no idea.. just do normally.. ok lar, can manage to answered it, but just.. not sure whether correct or not.. esp question 2 lol

3. I din plan to come back home today, but my mom gimme a call and said, my brother and my nieces !! gonna come, so i backpack and vrooom~! balik rumah xD
dammit, really miss my nieces !! well.. my bro was actually having some family probs.. but good to hear.. nth bad gonna happen xD, damn , i thought im not going to see them nemore !!

my nieces pics !!

2008-10-20T22:36:00.000-07:00

Just had my lunch, a few min later, gtg to uni already

my dad going for his seminar today, at hotel seri Malaysia, and today my house got marhaban for female, @_@ so my dad.. prolly wont spend his night at home today

nothing much, but i guess i have a vid to share with y'all

well.. miracle can happen.. for someone who is somebody.. but but not me yo

2008-10-20T17:59:00.001-07:00

Morning~ i just slept for 3 hours +, but I'm fresh, haha..
i can even comes up with something stupid
but i don't know.. i really feel scared.. so sudden
I'm going off to university this afternoon, got class at 2
then i wont be able to online anymore, barely

If and if
something bad happen to me
i just wanna tell
to all my frens.. i really love ya, especially to my uni frens
i really love ya all, Al, pian, besar, radhi, afiq, alim, azwan, wan, K.E, akim, azhari, syed and lan
i really treasure u all mates, but just i cant really show it, i just feel like our social are different
i'm sorry if im not giving y'all my commitments, I'm sry if im not do my best on helping y'all, but really mates, i cant live this world without u all, i really love u all, and i really do
i promise mates, i'll will have some times with u guys instead of sitting at home gaming
Thx for everything mates, especially Al and radhi not forget besar and syed, u guys always inspired me to be better man, althou sometimes i misunderstood it as sarcasm, but i believe u guys wanna see me at the top too.. i love you all mates
i always do !

To all my frens that i got to know on internet
i love u all too, love is blind yo, and u guys prove it, althou we never see each other
but i dunno, why i have this love and care feelings towards u guys
thanx for everything, thx for chilling me, and share everything that u guys thru
I appreciate all my frens every single second

to beatrice, i really love u, u r the best beatrice

To skye, jolene, faiz, nix, nana, wai wai, zedar and mao, thx for enlighten my life
love u all so much

U ALL GOT WHAT I NEED !!

Cheers : Shaman aka Asakura aka Fazril aka Vergo

2008-10-20T17:55:00.000-07:00

Suicidal

2008-10-20T17:54:00.001-07:00

I don’t know whether I should sleep or bleed
Or hang on the wall then taking off my seat
Whatever, I just wish I can stop from breathe
Misfit, the depression that overheat
The guns stick to the clip
Lights off, adios and that’s it
As been told that dying is full of pain
I’m just tired, sleepy without any red stain
Real thrill is none, I'm just sick and ill
I am the patient, so let the pill kills
Hallucinate, I see it all real
Meet the past people who no more exist
“Welcome to the Hades”, the word they insist
At the same time, I saw a light
It’s too bright, dazzling and cover up my sight
I heard a voice which keeps my name recite
I walk through, I saw an angel with wings open wide
I feel sudden fright, I ain’t ready for the judgment
Coz the angel doesn’t seems to smile, I ain’t go to heaven
Full of conscience and regret, im starting to cry
But its too late, suicidal it’s the end of my life

Good morning

2008-10-20T10:16:00.000-07:00

Haha, i woke kinda early today.. eh not today, i mean Monday heh
nothing much, no class today, finished all my labs thou

Planned to get to the university in the evening
but fall asleep in the evening, so i'll just go tomorrow
duh, i really feel the heat of the exam, dammit, cant sleep well, but still slacking
oh that's me, haha

well, i really have a nice dream in the evening
i dream, my parents moved at a place, like an island
the house not that big, but its really comfortable, i can't express it and i couldn't remember how the place looks like, but it really nice
then, me and my family and some frens, prepare for some party
the party is like.. waiting for someone special to come
and i was so happy

but well, it just a dream after all.. im in a 3D mode now, reality that is

Well, starting tomorrow, i won't online.. haha got shit to do, study and assignments
haha, well, gtg ^^ enjoy ur life

Dream

2008-10-20T10:12:00.000-07:00

It was all a dream
I always imagine the scene
Be someone I never been
A hero, a king, all the best things
Get laid with my love and my flings
Like the fairy tales, I’m the charming prince
Ride on a horse, rescue my princess and reign
Fight in wars and battles, I definitely win
Like the console game, all under my command
Name it and I’ll get what I want
But the sunlight penetrate through my eyelid
Burnt all my dreams and leave me in bleed
The pain force me to wake up from this sleep
The unconsciousness was too deep,
That is when I felt the heat
Flip my lips, beat my cheeks
I ain’t dreaming no more
In vacuous, I stand with my feet
But I’m just too weak
I keep on falling
The pressure depressing
So I crawl to bed back
Under the ceiling fan
Reality is pain
Please, let me sleep again

I close my eyes and having a different dream
About a palace and I’m the king
And having an angel as my queen
The palace located at a place full with snow
But it’s aint at artic, there is no Eskimo
It’s a different world
The world which only me and an angel
I knew it was a dream, but somehow I felt it real
Prolly the winds hit my bone and turn it chill
So the story begin at an angle of the castle
A pigeon as a messenger from the angel
With her wide wings, she stays floating
The King being hypnotized, keep on chasing
The crickets keep singing, until I heard the rooster
On 3 and 9 or something and when the sun rise
Try my luck by rolling the dice
Rolled the same number twice
I got it, I caught her
The date that I would never forget in September
She lifts me fly with her high to the sky
Clear views as the bird eyes
Watch the world from another level
But I’m too heavy for her to handle
Such a burden, she loosing the grasp
In frighten and shocked, I exhale my gasp
The crown is gone, the height shortened
With the feather of an angel, I’m falling down
I couldn’t think much now, I’m seeing the ground
Prepare for the crash, I’m praying hard
How could she do this to me?!
Everything is falling apart
I’ve lost my direction, my direction is ..
I feel the friction now.. I just hold my breath
……………………………….
………………………………
Flip my lips, beat my cheeks
Thanks God I still can stand on my feet
I never knew that the dream can be this pain
Let me wash my hands, I never sleep again

2008-10-18T15:54:00.001-07:00

Oh well, wat a plain day, Saturday

Woke up at 9, hunt some dead branches, then i logged in to my Granado Espada, lol, still in jail, fuck it, but those servers merge thou, prolly will re-play dat game later on my holiday

then i cook breakfast, 3 sausages and i left 1 for mom.

As usual, with my GH community, we play summon, i guess today we've summoned around 30 plus MVP, haha.. then i go off to sleep at downstairs coz my mom said, some1 gonna come to our house. yeah they did came, but i was asleep.. din really hear the ringbell lol althou i slept at the living room @_@

forgot wat time i woke up.. then play RO again.. haha nothing much, chit chat, kill MVP.. dats all

plain life.. i really wish to have some adventure life.. but im not dat high-endurance type of person.. my life so empty.. so passive after i moved here
No wonder Val commit suicide after so depress being in NY.. but after all.. i still have frens to keep my faith and love alive.. haha love.. love is weird and its totally blind

i told my best fren everything bout wat happened to me, haha i guess she the only who can understand me.. beside my wack rhymes, at least i feel quite relief after tell it out, love u w3n ^.^

Piece of a cracked egg, cant never join together
The wound prolly healed, but the scar stay forever
Water and sand will never merge
That is how God form this earth

17/10

2008-10-17T06:30:00.001-07:00

Well, I didn't sleep for the whole night @_@, took my shower at 7.10 am and wash the toilet (quite dirty) , prepare everything for 8.am class, eat my breakfast but couldn't find the bread so i just eat the sausage with sauce

8.00am i reached the class, the door still locked, after 2-3 mins, the technician came and unlocked it.

Transport Process class, the last class for this sem, dammit.. i miss many things, time flies so fast, i really need to study, next week i got 2 tests and some assignment to hand up, I've slacking all the time, these things make me think that i shouldn't waste my time on games nemore. I need to seize my opportunity, i gotta study for my future haha.

well, as usual, every Friday i will go to mosque to perform Solat Jumaat. Lucky the rain only fall after the prayers done, such a heavy rain caused my dad didn't go to post office to pay some bills. well as usual, i skip the evening class, heavy rain didn't let me ride. so i just sleep the whole evening, and i didn't on my comp coz of thundering.

Burn it down

2008-10-16T14:53:00.001-07:00

U burnt it down like a gasoline,

I’m in the heat, pain and sufferin’

The Pyro spinnin’ cage me within

As I’m trapped in the flame

My heart screamin’ through this realm

Like the space of vacuum

No one gonna hear the volume

But life must resume

Even the pain it’s consume

Combustion of this relation

It burnt me down like the oxygen

This incident, turn me into a Pyrophobia

Dun play with fire, without any extinguisher

Dun playing in the bush, without a proper shoe

Dun test a mountain without the tool

I be such a fool, living in this dream

Fly so high, someone clipped my wings

Until I’m falling down

Until I hit the ground

And that’s when I realized that the world is round

Nothing lasts long, when u up, u gotta turn it down

I just learnt my lesson from this school of life

To make a better man and a better way to survive

But I’m the cinder, the sinner who burnt to ashes

I deserve this, the judgment from an Angel that I crashed

I got my key, so lets start the engine

2008-10-16T06:57:00.000-07:00

Well, the purpose i create this blog is to improve my English, as a lubricant to move my muscles to write something and as a medium to burn my feelings and let it out.